https://sophiestrand.substack.com/p/chronic-pain-is-psychedelic
My greatest mindfulness teacher is not a human being or sacred text or therapeutic model. It has been my own nausea, the tides of which have repeatedly washed away any contours of a self I thought were stable. My greatest psychedelic trips have happened totally sober, stitched by the needle of my own ailing body into the present moment again and again without recourse to memory or fantasy.